Like I just wrote to MGM, I have a firm belief that Paul’s future will be much brighter that of the show if they keep making decisions of this caliber.

When I was watching ‘Sunday’ for the first time, I was setting my clock when the big moment came. I just stared at the screen, the clock frozen in my hands…Then I threw it out of my open window. I never throw things when I’m angry, but I was so enraged at such a slimy action that one minute, the clock was in my hands and the next, I heard it smash to the pavement below. When I read the reason behind it all, I was so disgusted that I even stopped watching the series and all of the re-runs for a while.

Of course, I realized that sulking wasn’t going to help (that and I missed watching SG-A), so I went online to channel my generally pissed off energy into something more positively constructive ^_^;

Although Paul has approached this entire predicament with fascinating and inspirational grace, he needs to realize that he deserves more from ‘the-powers-that-be’, those poor misguided people. I can understand that they would be afraid after SG-1′s retirement, but you’d think they’d have a little more faith in their fan base than that. They can’t go killing off main characters EVERY time their ratings drop. I’m just surprised that Martin Wood or Peter Deluise would actually stand for it…

I wonder if Thor could beam up a few producers and…persuade them to see things clearly >)

A lot of people would find that this sort of reaction of anger and disappointment is childish and say that it’s only a TV show. But to the fans, it’s much more. Not to say that all of us are totally off the deep end obsessed (though it may look like that to many ‘normal’ people), but that in following these characters through hardships and victories, we each invest a little bit of ourselves, our hopes, aspirations, and dreams, into them. From episode to episode, we come not only to love these characters, but also the people who portray them and are the molders of their personas.

I will admit that the death of Carson was done quite wantonly and out of the blue, but I do not believe it would have been more powerful or painful by any other fashion than quick and unexpected. In a way, I think it brings us closer to the other characters as we can physically and emotionally relate after such a jarring and devastating event.

Therefore, I think that a short hiatus until halfway through season four should be resorted to; not because I do not want to have our precious and wonderful Scot safely back under Atlantis’s roof, but because, in retrospect, his death has made him far more precious in our hearts. In his absence we have become aware of that gaping hole and that darker cloud that hangs in the air because there is no doctor always ready with a smile to push that darkness away.

I am absolutely sure that Carson will return. And when he does, we will realize how much more loyal to the show and all of its characters we have become. The concept of death is one that hits right home, reminding us all of our mortality, but through ‘Sunday’ and the widespread commotion that has arisen from it, I believe it reveals that through death, unity and friendship can be found, not only across the street but across the world.

So, we must all stand together, patient, yet unyielding until Carson is returned back to us. Like they say, “Hope dies last.”

All I can say is, please please please bring him back!!!